Uh huh, arrived at SG home at around 11pm. I changed my return flight yesterday, and due to the last-minute changes, all earlier flights were already full and i could only get on the last flight from TW to SG.
So this is how it is -- i don't have a life now. It's just work and work and work, and i can no longer manage my time anymore. I won't know where i will be the next day; everything is on last-minute basis now.
The go-live date was postponed to mid-July, which basically means that i may need to go back to TW once more. Since it was postponed, there was no point for us to continue staying in TW, so we returned earlier.
It would have been great for me if 貝 is around, but he's not and so i'm all alone now.
貝 is on a business trip in Korea now. He will be returning to SG this weekend. The timing would have been perfect if i were to return on Friday as originally planned.
Now, it just sucks.
When i was in TW, i returned to a hotel room everyday but that didn't give me a feeling of loneliness, as i always knocked off from work late and continue working in the room, so i didn't have much time thinking about other things.
Then over weekends, when i walked by myself on the busy streets of Taipei, i thought that was lonely. No matter how crowded the streets were, there was no one there to share anything with me. It was just me and myself; the more people there were, the lonelier i felt.
But then, now i realize that was nothing compared to what i'm feeling now.
Imagine returning to an empty home after having been away for so long. No one is here to welcome you, talk to you, or to give you a big smile, hugs and kisses.
Yes, i miss breathing the familiar air of SG. I am glad to be back, but to return to this emptiness.... that, really, is the loneliest of all.
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