Nothing in life stays the same forever. Everything, everyone is changing at every moment. I was a fool to think that there are things in life that would remain the same forever.
Realising this fact of life, the next thing to do is to follow the world, i.e. to change. I should do the things that i'd have never done and try the things that i did not like. Changes will do me good at time like this. Only by changing myself will i find salvation from this misery.
My misery came from my belief that there are things in life that will never change. So when it did, my world collapsed. I couldn't accept the fact that the things that i thought would stay constant had actually changed. I couldn't face this truth; i looked for a thousand reasons to convince myself that the things are in fact still the same.
Yet, the more i run away from it, the more it is catching up to me, shaking me with all its might and shouting at me, "look at me, right in the eyes. I AM the truth; you gotta face it."
Yes, as much as it hurts, as trying as it may be, there is no way to run away from it anymore. I know full well in my heart that things had indeed changed, to the way that it can never ever be the same anymore. So who am i kidding really, to think that it is still the same?
I need changes now. In everything.
Labels: introspection
