This morning, i woke up feeling like i landed on the square with a ladder that brought me up. I was in a rather calm mood, and could concentrate well at work too.
But then, as i moved forward on the board, i hit the square with a snake and slided down again.
At the end of the day, i felt exceptionally sad and fell into self-pity mode. I reached the place i rented feeling very down. I started crying when i was at the lift, and then cried all the way to the unit and when taking bath.
So i can't really classify today as a good or bad day for me really. I guess it wasn't entirely bad since i had at least been rather productive at work, even though not at my full force as last time. That's one small step forward nonetheless.
Anyway, as i mentioned, i accepted that this is the ups and downs i'll have to face for many months/years to come. No big deal, really. Throw the dice and continue on; who knows i may land on a ladder again tomorrow.
It is gonna be a long game, with many squares of snakes on the way before reaching the final squares. I could of course choose to stand still and dare not to make any more moves in case i land on a snake again.
But then, if i don't move on, i will forever be on the same square and forever won't reach that final square. Furthermore, there are lots of ladders too. I may actually land on one and bring me closer to where i wanna be.
So, why stop moving just because there are snakes around and then forget about the ladders?
The bottom line is -- never give up on ourselves and things will get better eventually. It always does.
Labels: introspection
