Why? Simply because there is no point anymore.
I had wanted to reminisce the good times as a preparation for my going back next week, which is the end of my two-month agreement with 贝. I was prepared to rebuild the marriage and make it better. I had actually built up enough confidence in believing that it will work.
But then, the truth surfaced over the last two days, and the whole thing took a sharp turn.
Now i thank God for it. I would have been even more hurt if i have really return home with the hope and then only to be hit this hard again. Not to say that it is any less hurtful for me now, but then at least i saw the blessings in disguise.
The story about what happened will be very very very long, definitely not something to be blogged about now when i'm actually in the middle of a workshop.
Just to summarise: my husband is a cheater who does all sorts of things behind my back and sweet talk everyone into believing him, has no remorse and continue to lie to me constantly, went as far as crossing the last line despite knowing that it spells doom to our marriage and may bring about severe consequence of serious disease (both to him and to me), and so now there is nothing to salvage anymore.
Yes, everything has finally come to an end now. I no longer need to be torn between the to-end or to-continue decision anymore.
The decision cannot be anymore loud and clear now: IT IS THE END NOW.
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