This is excruciating heartache for me.
Yes, he will never step into this house ever again, a place where he had stayed over 8 years of weekends, where there were countless loving memories and happy moments.
Everything that he owns will forever be removed from this house. Yet, what he can't remove are the memories, the shadow that he cast in every corner of this house, left behind haunting me every waking and sleeping hour.
Sometimes, i'd close my eyes and imagine my 贝 is still with me, calling me tenderly "贝, 贝, 贝". I could almost feel as if i'm in his arms, or he's playfully tapping his fingers on my head lovingly, or he mischievously put my little pillow into his shirt so that i'd grab it from him, or he steals a kiss on my cheek in the kitchen or living room when mom isn't paying attention.
Just half-a-year ago, he'd still be doing all these in this house. Who'd expect that everything can change so fast within just a few months time. If i'd known that all these would not last a lifetime, i'd have savour every moment of it.
Treasure what you have, cherish what you hold in your hands, for once lost, no amount of remorse can bring it back ever again.
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