Yeah, am plagued by the heartache again lately.
This is normal i guess, as during the process of healing, there bound to be ups and downs. I am just at the down side now.
The past came haunting me -- the blissful happy days, the heart-breaking betrayal, the pain... and also the unknown future.
And i still miss my 贝 who no longer exists. As for YY, i am also worried about how he could cope with the difficulties in life and whether or not he would be tempted by Satan again during time of adversity.
In fact, i am not having it any easier because the wound was too deep, and no one has really taught me how to deal with hurt.
Yet, what i do know clearly is that bad times can either destruct a person, or provide the opportunities to change for the better. Whichever it will be is solely of the person's own choice.
I choose to go the right way. Always have been; always will be. Now that i am no longer a person without a faith, there will be guidance to me on how to walk the right path.
I guess i just have to be patient.
Labels: introspection
