I will have to go to the immigration office in SG tomorrow to get the visa endorsed on my passport. LF, PT and I have also planned to visit Carol and her newborn at her home in SG tomorrow in the evening.
As for when I will be departing for NZ, it is still unknown now. I will have to speak with my boss first to agree on a date, and there are things to arrange too, such as flight and temporary accommodation. However, it is likely that i will be leaving the country very soon, probably in less than two weeks time.
Now reality starts to sink in and i suddenly feel anxious, apprehensive, stressed and even panic. There is this thought in my head that keeps saying, "oh gosh, you are going to work and stay all alone in a foreign land for years... do you know what that means??!!"
There is this fear of the unknown that crept up on me, and it is part of human nature. Yes, of course i have fear, even though it was my decision and my wish to go overseas. It is just like you have decided that you gotta do bungy jumping at least once in your lifetime and have actually pay to do so, but when you are standing at the brink of the bridge looking down before taking the plunge, you will feel the fear and hesitation. However, you will still take the dip eventually, knowing that it is something you have wanted and decided. You will just go ahead no matter what.
I will, too, take that leap, despite the fear.
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